to bern.

Friends for 7 years, lover for 1.

As a friend, I figured out quickly that he was a very very good listener. He's the furthest thing from being judgmental, and just a very good and cool person. We had such fun being friends!

And then came the transition period, the awkward phase where I often question if he really was being extra nice to me, or if I was just imagining this, as I thought anything more than friendship was impossible because we were so platonic. Kim and Bern together was very very weird. Yet after a while, he made it pretty obvious that he was serious about this, and I had to make the decision if I was willing to risk our beautiful platonic friendship. Turned out I was.

We've been through a whole series of obstacles. Even before we officially got together, there were already hardships and crying to sleeps. Things didn't come easy for us. It came to a point where I broke down before Jesus wondering why it had to be so hard, often faltering and contemplating if all the hardships were worth it. Yet, he held on strong and fought for me, and we got through it together.

Again, I don't know what made him hold on. I don't know what he sees in us that's worth all the fight. I guess that's favor.

He loves me in such a way that I never had had the slightest doubt that he loves me. I never tried to make him love me, he just does. Not that I am a lazy bum in the relationship, but it's more of when I cook for him, or pick him up from the airport, or get him his favourite basketball jersey.. It's all to see that cheeky smile on his face. It was simply because I love him too and never for the hope that he will love me more.

I wouldn't say our relationship is the smoothest ever, but one thing obvious is that there is so much favor in it. On fights so bad he had to leave the room and I had too much pride to chase after him, I prayed to God for him to come back in and he actually did! On other days, Holy Spirit would work in me, enabling me to do things I know I can't (like approaching him first even though I was piping mad. The normal me would be too prideful to do that.) It is beautiful to see the fingerprint of God in us :)

I've always wanted an older guy. He is 3 weeks younger.
I've always wanted a guy who's taller then me when we sit down. He's not.
I've always wanted a caucasian guy. He's asian. (And I even have a suspicion that he's mixed because of those huge eyes.)

But my dear Bern, you're more important than all that.

You have the qualities that I've never really asked God for (which I should've). You're kind, hardworking, and faithful. You don't take life too hard, and always so trusting of Jesus like a child. You are my biggest supporter, and you believed in me more than I can ever believed in myself. You are a strong tower that is always there for me, and you are very patient with me. You laugh easily, love (me) easily, forgive easily. You always want to try to become a better version of yourself and are open to criticism. You're fun, funny, and my days with you have always been an adventure. And most of all, you have always been my best friend.

I know that this year will be such a blessed year for you, and I know that God will take you to where you need to be and be with you throughout. I pray that we both pursue Him more, and as we do that, He will bring us to love each other more than we ever can by ourselves.

Happy Birthday, love! I love you!

<3

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